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Ok so, I'm not one to do "re-bound dating". I spcifically wait until i know I'm not going to date someone because of that. I also dislike being told that "maybe i'm only having a crush on said guy for the sake of having somone" Well, sorry, I'm not that fucking desperate for attention from the male gender. If i wanted to be with someone for the sake of being with somone, it wouldn't have been hard to do. I JUST TODAY, had a guy from WEST AFRICA ask to LD date me. and like, MONTHS ago a guy from the UK want to date me (he still does btw) and some dude from TEXAS! AND a 16 year old from right here in calgary. SO yes, if i wanted to date someone for the sake of it, any of them would have been happy to be that person.

And, I'm sure if i left the house and was able to go to bars, i'd be able to pick some guy up there if i wanted to. But, as I stated above, rebound dating doesn't suit me, nor do I think it is a good idea. That's why i've been single for almost 3 months.

And now, I find this really nice, dorky, gawky, drama nerd sweet-heart,and apprently (or so I was told) I may just like him because it would give me someone to be with. and you know, If I declared "OMFG I LOVE HIM!" then i would be concerned. But it's thus far a minor, "let's see what happens" crush. I refuse to get my hopes up. Also, I've THOUGHT about that very situation; that i may only like him so I'd have somone. I didn't sleep i was thinking about that so hxc. so what, am I no longer allowed to date ever ever again sine he may, just may, be the "rebound guy"??? I DON'T DO REBOUNDS!

sgdashgdaJASHDAJSGDHASHGDASDAGKJSGDAS GRRRRRRRRRRR

Oh and, I don't know how to deal with the emotions of a minor crush. Since i fail and haven't had to in like....over a year....halp???
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